Ariana Grande has been going through a lot over the past few months, and it makes complete sense why she’s been taking time for herself. Having mostly been away from social media and the spotlight in general, Ariana is still trying to cope with the passing of her ex, Mac Miller and and understandably so. What Ariana has endured, not forgetting the London bombings in 2016 or break up with Pete Davidson, is something most of us can’t relate to, nor would we want anyone to have to go through. On Monday night, Ariana shared an intimate look at her relationship with Mac Miller in a very moving clip.

In the video posted to her Instagram Story, viewers can see Mac wearing a black suit as he talks to Ariana’s grandmother before some ceremony or award show. At one point, Mac looks back to smile at Ariana, who is filming the interaction between the two.

Following Mac’s passing, sources close to Ariana told E! News that “Ariana hasn’t given herself enough time for the grieving and healing process, and feels like her emotions are out of control,” hence why her break up with Pete.