Kanye West has finally opened up about his infamous 2016 mental breakdown. The 40-year-old rapper posted a nearly two hour interview with Charlamagne Tha God on the site wegotlove.com as he detailed the factors that led him to the hospital.
Among the contributing factors the Famous hitmaker named were the ‘moment’ with Taylor Swift leading to less radio play, Kim Kardashian’s robbery, the fashion world turning their backs on him, and the grind of being on tour.
Kanye sees his November 2016 hospitalization and psychiatric hold as kind of an awakening.
He explained: ‘I think I am in a stronger place than I ever was after the breakdown, or as I like to say the breakthrough.’
The 39-year-old Breakfast Club host then queried the rapper on what caused the breakdown.
Kanye answered: ‘Fear, stress, control, being controlled, manipulation like being a pawn in the chess piece of life. Stressing things that like create validation that I didn’t need to worry about as much and just the concept of competition and being in competition with so many elements at one time.
On a race against time, your age, you’re getting old. A race against popularity on the radio: [DJ] Khaled got this song, Drake got this song on the radio, it’s playing to death but Saint Pablo ain’t playing. I could take the whole interview talking about [this].’
He said he was searching for validation through other means and it was frustrating that his songs weren’t getting as much play but he points to the moment where he interrupted Taylor Swift as when things shifted.
Kanye explained: ‘Ever since the Taylor Swift moment it has never been the same, the connection with radio. Like whatever powers that be, it was much harder after that.
The All Of The Lights hitmaker famously stormed on stage during Taylor Swift’s acceptance speech at the MTV Video Music Awards in September 2009.
He said that radio play was just one of the factors along with Kim Kardashian’s infamous robbery in Paris which left him ‘helpless.’
Kanye explained: ‘I went to Paris on that trip to protect her but not protect her physically but to just help her with with her looks.
‘I was like ‘let me put my eye on it personally while she’s in Paris to make sure she bust these n***as a**, you know, get fly’ and one of the things she said that she heard is that they were coming to rob her and they had to wait til I had left.
‘And that people were strategizing and scheming that for a long time so when she probably got to Paris by herself they were like ‘okay this is our chance.”
He went on to explain that one of his friends let him know that Kim was robbed but was still fuzzy on the details at the time.
Kanye also said another contributing factor to his breakdown was a week before the events in Paris when he had a Yeezy fashion show in September 2016 at New York City’s Roosevelt Island.
He infamously showed up two hours (he says 45 minutes late) late for the outdoor show which saw models stumbling and fainting as he said the public ‘LeBron’d him’ comparing his situation to when fans were upset when NBA superstar jumped ship to the Miami Heat in 2010.
Kanye had strong feelings about how he felt like the fashion world turned on him as he said: ‘As soon as I was 45 minutes late, I felt it was the fashion community getting the right to say n***** without saying it.
‘To be like ‘yo we know you come through stepping on necks and all that when it comes to your approach to things but if you get out of line boy we going to roast you’ and it affected me because I’m an artist and it affected me emotionally.
‘It’s like all these things were almost set up to put me on meds, to break me down like the robbery, I don’t know where that came from. Was that a bigger plan? A bigger set-up.’
He also says that being stage four times a week also contributed to his overall exhaustion.
Even when he was in the hospital for eight days, Kanye said the paranoia was palpable as he said he begged friends not to leave his side because he was scared the doctors would kill him.